urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn I Love Jacy<3 cwisofer 2005-04-25T02:47:53Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:15077 2005-04-25T02:47:53Z 2005-04-25T02:47:53Z okay kids<br />i have a new lj now so .....yeah <br />the name is <br />aerishasmyheart<br />i think ill just add everyone and just add me back <br />&lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:14645 2005-04-24T04:22:47Z 2005-04-24T04:22:47Z my god i love her urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:14487 2005-04-13T01:57:33Z 2005-04-13T01:57:33Z none im hurting everyday inside<br />the pain is becoming unbearable<br />i think about it every night<br />my emotions are no longer stable<br />but you'll never know<br /><br />not a day goes by<br />that i dont look at this gun<br />and think how easy it'd be<br />to free myself from this world<br />but you'll never know<br /><br />its so hard to live this life<br />i cry far too often<br />i hope its soon that i die<br />i can't fight the pain any longer<br />but you'll never know<br /><br />you can't know<br />its impossible<br />i put on a smile<br />and fool the world<br />so you'll never know urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:14261 2005-04-08T04:51:04Z 2005-04-08T04:51:04Z lethal weapon 2 the treasure in my mind is greater than any wordly glory<br /><br />madness and genious are serperated only by degrees of success<br /><br />a lie always returns; be careful how you catch it<br /><br />the fatal flaw in every plan is the assumption that you know more than your enemy urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:13965 2005-03-30T18:51:51Z 2005-03-30T18:51:51Z We do not suddenly fall on death, but advance towards it by slight degrees; we die every day. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:13754 2005-03-27T05:35:45Z 2005-03-27T05:35:45Z fifa 2005 soundtrack okay i need help in deciding on a new lj name here are your choices<br />comment and tell me the one you want<br /><br />yourSilentScreams<br /><br />just_look_away<br /><br />we used to laugh and smile a lot<br />and live like there was no tomorrow<br />breaking rules sometimes got caught<br />there was never a moment of sorrow<br />but those times are gone and so are you<br />and i dont hold your hand anymore<br />i dream you are back i wish it were true<br />as i stare at your reflection in my mirror<br />my hearts broken now that we arent together<br />and your silent screams will haunt me forever<br /><br />everyone comment please i need toknow which one is better and commento n the poem if youd like urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:13351 2005-03-18T03:47:41Z 2005-03-18T03:47:41Z who cares new lj name <br />comment with suggestions urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:13145 2005-03-15T02:19:32Z 2005-03-15T02:19:32Z dammit by blink 182 i cut real deep<br />and before i fall asleep<br />the last drop of blood<br />finds the floor<br />but before my eyes close<br />tell me you love me<br />even if you’re pretending<br />itd give my story a happy ending<br /><br />thats poem number one<br />now number two...<br />the guns to my head<br />my fingers on the trigger<br />after im dead<br />will i be remembered<br />this is harder than i thought<br />i dont think i can do this<br />im just not strong enough<br />i cant do it<br />so will you<br />will you do it for me<br />doesnt matter who does it<br />its you that killed me<br /><br />and now for number three and our final poem<br /><br />a boy fell in love<br />thought he found the perfect girl<br />she meant everything to him and more<br />but to her he meant nothing<br />she was so beautiful<br />he was just there<br />her smile lit the world<br />her voice made angels jealous<br />he could only admire<br />try to gather the courage to ask her out<br />but it will never happen<br />she’s a goddess and he’s mere mortal<br />the boy was me<br />and the girls name<br />was emily<br /><br />comment and tell me which one is your favorite<br />and "all of them" is not an option urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:12881 2005-03-06T00:53:48Z 2005-03-06T00:53:48Z summer of 69 today was awesome<br />cody...CINAMON!!!!!!!!<br />hotty straight in the ass TWICE<br />jon..piece of piss lol why was i the only one that laughed <br />NUTS!<br />did em <br />we won both of our games today becca and erin didnt go -sad face<br />eryn couldnt make it - sadder face<br />garland didnt even talk to her damn it i - saddest face<br />but we did win<br />taylor got a fucking red card AGAIN damn you child *smacks head*<br />huff oh well only one game <br />that makes a lot of sense he punches a played and is suspended for ONE game...curses and gets three games wtf <br />*siiiiiiigh*<br />taylor friggin clocked that kid lmao but still a damn fool<br />well im out today was pretty exciting<br />and im SO SUNBURNT!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:12787 2005-02-25T03:43:12Z 2005-02-25T03:43:12Z violence love is just a simple emotion isnt it just four letters that describe the way a person feels then why is it so complicated why would you kill yourself over this word? it can make two people capable of living the rest of their lives very happy but it can just as easily cause two people to live the rest of their lives with a broken heart and depressed, assuming they survive the pain love caused why does everyone long for this feeling? maybe thats why it causes pain maybe if people did not search for love then they wouldnt feel its horrendous pain maybe they want this feeling so bad they unknowingly force themselves to feel love for someone though they really dont maybe they mistake this feeling with a simple crush it an easily misconstrued situation after all you havent felt love yet so you assume that the greatest feeling you have at the moment is love but love isnt something compulsive you cant see a hot girl or hear something she says and you fall in love it doesnt work like that does love even exist maybe it is just a good feeling you get the person you think you are in love with just gives you this good feeling all the time isnt that love though maybe over time the definition for love has changed maybe its true meaning will not be found for millions of years maybe society has just used the word love to describe a good feeling maybe the only truth that has stayed with the word is its power maybe love is so powerful is can heal your wounds dry your tears make you stronger faster smarter maybe it can cure every disease stop world hunger pay the bills maybe it can give you everything you could possibly need want and more maybe love has only happened a handfull of times since earths or even time existence even now you can see love lose its meaning just count how many times a day you hear it used i love you i love this i love pizze i love so and so i mean imagine what it meant a million years ago maybe you were lucky to even hear it used in your lifetime maybe you will never feel or even see this happen to anyone iin your lifetime<br /><br />those are ten minutes of my thoughts on love but the bell rang so i stopped writing and yeah... comment please that took time to put in here lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:12344 2005-02-20T22:13:54Z 2005-02-20T22:13:54Z violence wow what a weekend!!!!! and its not even over but nothing will happen for the remainder of it<br />taylor and i have a lil secret DUDE that fort was so awesome lol and i swear the boogy man was in those bushes lol i kept hearing footsteps!<br />drew lol damian and isaac WOW "our trip to cocoa beach" lmao that was so funny specially the you know what scene lol and i did not realize all those people were staring lol haha oh my <br />we had so many free brochures my goodness i think the cleaning lady took them all though <br />there were so many rednecks at that place maaaaaan haha drew ....rena and ashley hahaha that was funny<br />those chicks down the hall!!!! total hotties pfft<br />taylor is so funny messed up lol<br />HAHA man we didnt get any sleep holy shit all both hours <br />haha the mirror and the TV chips in the microwave<br />well i dont feel like typing <br />ttyl urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:12279 2005-02-10T19:31:14Z 2005-02-10T19:31:14Z none wow today was so pimp<br />im like done with poetry....<br />OH MY GOD FLOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br />stephany and jessica oh my god im just too good lol<br />stephany didnt even suspect it and jessica DEFINATLY didnt suspect it lol that was hilarious<br />okay now<br />i have a job for all livejournal readers who should i get next<br />emily<br />or logan<br />whether you know them or not....just pick a name lol<br />cuz i need everyones input on who to get next<br />Logan has some c razy senses she was like ...something isnt right lol thatw as awesome<br />soraya was awesome for helping &lt;3 lol she has special protection she can never be floured urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:12022 2005-02-09T19:49:27Z 2005-02-09T19:49:27Z none i love you today<br />i hate you tomorrow<br />you take away my pain<br />then give back my sorrow<br />you give me head<br />and we get in bed<br />all because "i love you" was said<br />i love you so much<br />turns into shut the fuck up<br />but all that matters<br />is i got in your pants<br />this is all a result<br />of teenage romance<br /><br />i really want comments on this one lol<br />i have gotten a lot of different reactions to this urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:11602 2005-02-05T06:23:30Z 2005-02-05T06:23:30Z give me one good reason...and dammit wow today was pretty cool!!!!<br />stephany got me sick!!!!!!!!! oh my gosh stephany you really did<br />atleast i did my chem work <br />math test equals lame since everyday this week i have been writing instead of doing math or even paying attention to her notes so i had no idea what was going on and i didnt even look at half of the stuff only adding and subtracting matrices and multiplying them and cramers rule and stuff but i had no idea how to do area of a triangle and nooooooooooo idea how to do the inverse of a matrix then they did more inverse things i had no fucking clue what they were talking about<br />history was a lot! of fun lol josh tripped the pope<br />history has bored your crew to death<br />GAME OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!<br />i have written some poems lately but i have not been posting them sorry but i do have one ill post <br />my eyes are playing games<br />constantly hallucinating<br />my ears seem to be playing too<br />i thought i heard i love you<br />my arms feel like they're holding you<br />but i know this cant be true<br />im experiencing the taste of your lips<br />ill never have all of this<br />my want has taken over my senses<br />but honestly i have nothing against this<br />so ill let go and let myself feel<br />and maybe one day this could all be real<br />the last two lines are thanks to the most awesomest girl SHAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! amanda hartley you rock!<br />codys lil solo tonight WOOHOO!!!! he is gonna rock out...like always<br />even though you got me sick stephany i still love you &lt;2<br />garland&lt;33333333333333333333333333333333<br />jaclyn &lt;33333<br />darci &lt;3<br />eryn btte urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:11075 2005-01-31T19:39:27Z 2005-01-31T19:39:27Z there is he trembles and he finds the gun<br />a suicide note for the family<br />outside setting is the sun<br />its clear he's suffering from insanity<br />and as the lights start to fade<br />andn the sun starts to dim<br />ending is his last day<br />his fate, looking very grim<br />he puts the barrel to his head<br />decides its better in his mouth<br />now this second he is dead<br />as the gunshot loudly rings out<br /><br />its not like really done but i felt like updating so there it is i have like four more but they are all not done and this is the poem for my book of poems lol well here it is<br />in these pages you'll find my soul<br />depression, love, dreams and goals<br />a ballpoint pen filled with ink<br />allows you to see just what i think<br />even as the binding starts to tear<br />the writings' full meaning will always be there<br />in each word my blood sweat and tears<br />they'll stain the pages for many years<br />so be brave and look inside<br />the diary of a tormented mind<br />Comment &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:10948 2005-01-27T03:48:37Z 2005-01-27T03:48:37Z none as i lay here<br />and slowly let go<br />its you i hold dear<br />and i love you so<br /><br />i slowly bleed out<br />my dying soul<br />ill save you a cloud<br />if thats where i go<br /><br />so this is the end<br />and its you ill miss<br />one final touch<br />our last kiss <br /><br />thatsfor my sn obviously lol <br /><br />ive wished upon the star in your eyes<br />all of my love within you it lies<br />the only dream to have ever come true<br />is that fateful day that i met you<br />so as i say goodnight<br />and turn off the lights<br />know thats its you love<br />that im forever dreaming of<br /><br />those are my two more recent poems comment and tell me what you think urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:10723 2005-01-25T04:24:17Z 2005-01-25T04:24:17Z boxcar racer GARLAND ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:10458 2005-01-20T04:13:34Z 2005-01-20T04:13:34Z end with you yeah pretty normal day for a change<br />my haircut is so embarassing lol THANKS ERIE!!!!!!!!<br />oh well i love it cuz eryn did it some people like it but i cant help but think everyone is trying to be nice<br />so i will continue wearing this hood as much as possible hehe<br />history is definatly the lamest class i have ever had...by far!<br />i got a 100 on my greek alphabet test because i had the sheet out the whole time and coach thomas never even noticed damn im good<br />i saw jaclyn and her horrid hair coloring oh my! <br />im gonna be up all night long doing all the hw we have been assigned in math from the past week WOOHOO <br />everyone needs to go watch the varsity girls tomorrow night COOL people go there which is why...im definatly going hehe<br />i have like not been talking to my closest friends lately and it sucks soo friggin bad i hate it!<br />&lt;/3 eryn shay i love you both brittany &lt;/3 CODY rocks *wink* drew has the best fucking hair on the face of this earth lol its so pimp i wish i had it yeah im done *sigh* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:10087 2005-01-18T03:01:00Z 2005-01-18T03:01:00Z letters to god brittany brittany brittany<br />i could fill nine entries about how much drama i have dealt with with her this weekend<br />but its not worth it<br />ill talk about what good things i did<br />get rid of all the depressing things<br />WOW dinos was a lot of fun...kinda lol we just messed around and i listened to his lil bro curse more than i do<br />HAHA dino you hit the ground soo hard dude<br />eryn cut my hair *super duper ugly* but hair grows back and i still love eryn<br />i just dont trust her with my hair anymore<br />i got hit by a car because the world is against me<br />nobody seemed to want to talk to me this weekend except stephany lol YOU ROCK!!!!!!! you = stephany<br />me jessica and katherine had a blast at the lock in at some church i met this super cool chick by the name of jody<br />i hung out with alison a tiny bit but it was still pretty fun<br />i didnt bowl and i didnt do any broom thingy<br />but i did a lot of talking and it was still fun<br />i broke a club and almost killed some chicks with my amazing put i also broke the club<br />which was an accident i swear it i left it in the hole i wonder who found it ...hmmm<br />im actually sorta looking forward to school tomorrow i hope this week will be as good as the weekend has but minus all the drama<br />my mom flipped on me about my hair hahaha<br />everybody keeps taking my picture! ewww nooo i hate my hair!!!!!!!!!! ugh lol<br />well im out for now i have more to say though ttyl urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:9752 2005-01-09T18:54:59Z 2005-01-09T18:54:59Z a whole new world hey im not gonna be at my house all weekend<br />tell me if you wanna do something fun<br />or illegal<br />illegal activities= so much fun<br />ttyl &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:9674 2005-01-09T05:31:20Z 2005-01-09T05:31:20Z a whole new world age: 19<br />fathers name: iono<br />sex: hell yeah nigga<br />salary desire: 3 million dollars...cash<br />white guy: i spent three years in harvard <br />Lo dawg : oh really? i just spent six months at county<br />haha this movie is so funny<br />dashikis poem lol some black name i dont understand the first part<br />the love is by far the most precious thing on earth<br />like a roses fragrance<br />or a childs birth<br />love me and leave me thats the story of my life<br />thats not gonna happen again you see<br />since i bought a butchers knife<br />you see the next guy that leaves me<br />ima chop off his balls <br />and cut off his dick<br />im stab that mother fucker<br />ima kill him<br />ash tray : THATS ENOUGH! <br />dahskiki has seven children and her address is 6969 penetration avenue!!! hahahaha<br />today has been really cool <br />actually it hasnt been all that great but tonight has been<br />i slept all day<br />till about 6 or so<br />i have been talking to brittany....and we havent been fighting!!!!!woohoo<br />its thebest feeling<br />blah blah blah blah blah blah blah<br />im going to take her on a magic carpet ride! =)<br />i wish MTV would pimp my 12 speed<br />that rhymed....amazing<br />i smell a poem coming on <br />me and eryn are talking *huuuuuuuge smile* love er to death<br />i guess i dont have much else to say tonight <br />comment urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:9326 2005-01-06T23:34:47Z 2005-01-06T23:34:47Z dont cry -guns n roses today was pretty cool last night was awesome i went to the southeast girls soccer game southeast won woohoo!<br />i talked to garland last night =))))))))))))))<br />i got my schedule changed so im not in band anymore <br />but now im in weight training which is so lame there isnt anyone in there<br />farahs dumb self got out of the class just when i was getting put in it hahaha man o man i saw her on the way to the gym she was signing out and i was signing in..how lame is that?!?!?<br />chemistry was boring today and i havent done all the work that i need to its due tomorrow huff!<br />history was pretty lame i got in trouble for talking??? so lame so so lame!<br />alegbra 2.....slooooow like always i kept falling asleep luckily i have my hair i just put it in front of my eyes and act like im reading or paying attention and just sleep on my hand im so smooth<br />one good thing about weight training is i got JK and he is kinda cool i could have gotten an asshole so im not complaining<br />he always talks english to me its so funny lol i just tell him to piss off and stuff like that haha oh yeah <br />*sigh* then i get home to the usual brittany drama<br />boohoohoo im over it right now its not even worth it anymore<br />maybe its me maybe its her it doesnt really matter anymore<br />i havent talked to ANYONE yet today this is so lame <br />i like slept a lot too lol i always sleep when iget home <br />well i think thats all for now ill try to update tonight or tomorrow comment &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:9131 2005-01-04T04:26:39Z 2005-01-04T04:26:39Z none hello everybody<br />me and brittany had ourselves a lil talk &lt;3<br />i got my new schedule today <br />im somewhat pleased with it for the most part i will have a lot more thinking time in these classes <br />history is going to be easy algebra 2 i think will be the only problems because i cant the teacher is GOSH! lol <br />chemistry is pretty cool our teach is a lil wack<br />she just talks to herself...a lot haha its funny though<br />i kept falling asleep in band class but we have a sub all the rest of this week POETRY TIME!!!!!!!! so im going to wait to get my schedule changed so i can just chill out in band class whoadie<br />it wasnt that thrilling to see everyone again because for some reason i dont really care about most of the people i saw and dont really care too much for the<br />social aspect of school which is really different for me<br />like i think im losing friends too<br />like i try to talk to people and they act almost as if they dont know me its so lame<br />i prolly spend the rest of the year a loner it wont be that bad though i think ill get all my work done and have a lot of time to think..but maybe too much time to think oh well i think thats it for now<br />if anyone wants to hang out this weekend or sometime this week tell me <br />im out &lt;3 later urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:8756 2005-01-03T03:41:12Z 2005-01-03T03:41:12Z senses fail hi school tomorrow no sleep tonight FUN...&lt;/3 i dont know what im thinking myself or what to do anymore brittany problems and i just wanna erase her from my life right now just because she has caused me a lot of heart ache and i just wanna start all over with everything but there are some things i cant erase well shit im going to try anyways with a few exceptions...im am going to start over and make myself a new person a different me... maybe a cooler me and hopefully a better me well i think thats about it for now goodbye everyone comment &lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:i_love_jaclyn:8660 2005-01-01T09:43:42Z 2005-01-01T09:43:42Z emo shit 1. Who are you?<br />2. Are we friends?<br />3. When and how did we meet?<br />4. How have I affected you?<br />5. What do you think of me?<br />6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?<br />7. How long do you think we will be friends?<br />8. Do you love me?<br />9. Do you have a crush on me?<br />10. Would you kiss me?<br />11. Would you hug me?<br />12. Physically, what stands out?<br />13. Emotionally, what stands out?<br />14. Do you wish I was cooler?<br />15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?<br />16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.<br />17. Am I loveable?<br />18. How long have you known me?<br />19. Describe me in one word.<br />20. What was your first impression?<br />21. Do you still think that way about me now?<br />22. What do you think my weakness is?<br />23. Do you think I'll get married?<br />24. What makes me happy?<br />25. What makes me sad?<br />26. What reminds you of me?<br />27. If you could give me anything what would it be?<br />28. How well do you know me?<br />29. When's the last time you saw me?<br />30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?<br />31. Do you think I could kill someone?<br />32. Are you going to put this on your LJ and see what I say about you?<br />me and brad were freakin high as hell and i just got home we friggin bombed nams house lmao<br />i saw brittany today that really really made me happy but it seemed like she didnt want me to be there i mean maybe it was just me not doing anything but we sat on like opposite ends of the room for 20 minutes and then we huggedd a real tiny bit and the rest of the time shewas talking to raychel and eryn...but not chris no not that asshole<br />i talked to jaclyn i think too<br />i talked to a lot of people and i think i was really rude to them i have to apologize and reading this tomorrow morning or whenever the hell i wake up will be a reminder to do all this<br />brad is watchong porn i was like incredibly stoned woooooow i have a lot more to say but i dont feel like typing too much